Remembering you fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark
Remembering you how you used to be
You were angels
So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything
I keep looking for my old self in all my old lovers. I keep searching for a speck of lost youth that I once had. Such vibrant life I once lived all lost to my human way of despair. I search for that old girl who used to be free and used to want to live. Full of dreams that would captivate a conversation, she could make you fall in love so easily.
I seemed to have lost some zest for life, some hope as well. I’ve been in thought for so long, remembering old ways, past ways. I’ve laughed at silly memories that pop out when I hear this song. It was once who I was. Just driving around town, picking up random strangers and having a few drinks just to keep from thinking.
Im stuck in a phase of wanting to be the old me and wanting to be a better me. I don’t say much now a days. Just keep the thoughts in my head. Maybe out of fear of what anyone would think. My perspective is not quite accepted. I am living somehow, breathing new days that feel bland. I think I am in desperate need of some adventure. Maybe a need of a new plan.