I remember all of the things that I thought I wanted to be
So desperate to find a way out of my world and finally breathe
Right before my eyes I saw, my heart it came to life
This ain’t easy, it’s not meant to be
Every story has its scars
There have been many kept secrets within my family circle. Some that are way to dark to believe it be true. Some that have kept me up at night wondering where all of us went wrong. I’ve been holding in the anger of it all, looking for answers that no one answers honestly. We lie. We always lie and to each others face.
Why?
I still wonder why I can’t seem to be heartless. I can’t seem to just not care. I can’t let go. I can’t do a lot of things that I should so that I can rise up. You all affect me much deeper than you will even understand or know, but you simply do not care at all. I think to myself if you really care for me, your aunt, you’d change, you wouldn’t lie to my face and you certainly would not make me out to seem a fool.
How dare you.
I care. I’ve always had, but I was only a child back then and couldn’t do much to save you. Now that I am trying, now that I can, Now that I am willing to push more, you go and do the most stupid things that will only get you killed. How long till you realize you can’t blame the past all the time. You must learn to accept that you will not get apologies from anyone who hurt you back then. Its the sad truth, but what counts is what you make of yourself, a world full of opportunities and you’ve chosen to lead a life of danger.
Am I going to have to loose another nephew, you fool.